Friday, March 28, 2014

Balancing life everyday

So this week #SOL14 is about a balancing act between work and home. As I read this topic, I looked around my house to see nothing but chaos.... laundry needs to be done, dishes in the sink, room to be cleaned, homework to be completed, Shopping that needs to be done, a boyfriend who wants to spend time with me, a mother who wants to watch our favorite shows together, and the list goes on. Everyday, the roles of my life vary moment to moment. Daughter. Sister. Girlfriend. Teacher. Tutor. Godmother. Aunt. Babysitter. Friend. Cook. Cleaner. etc. All these labels I am very proud to call me but as much as I love them, I feel that doing all of them within 24 hours sometimes is too much to bear. Everyday I try and balance everything in my life but yet as organized as I am, I continue to feel like I'm drowning in an overload of everyday things. Here is a poem to explain my thoughts:

I talk about it, I groan, I yell, I pout, 
I sometimes even cry when I feel there is no way out. 
The world seems to get small and there is no where to run
I find myself cornered between tasks which are no fun.
I take a deep breath and hold my head high,
It's only another day of life passing me by. 
I gather my thoughts and put my best efforts in 
I say to myself let the fun begin.
I shuffle the schedule to make it all work, 
I clean, cook and tutor, when I would rather read a book.
My day gets dark, and Im ready for bed, 
yet I'm not quite done with everything in my head.
I check email and blogs, make sure assignments are up to date, 
I write lessons and plan tasks  even though it is late.
the clock turns to 10 and its time to call it quits,
my eyes begin to water and fill with some mist.
I'm tired and feel bad for there limited time with you 
Tomorrow is another day he says just know no matter what I love you too. 

At the end of the day, even though times are stressful and life seems hard, the love I have at home makes it all worth while. So when life seems unbalanced and you feel there is no way you can make it work just know that there is always a way to make the glass half full and to make tomorrow start with a smile.

Saturday, March 22, 2014

quote of the day

I am a huge fan of sayings and quotes. I enjoy doodling pictures from time to time and I love making crafts and writing poems. I love to listen to song lyrics and relate them into my life because every song has a story. This week for #SOL, we need to think about our personal note that comes before our daily inspiration. I feel that inspiration happens everyday in life whether you look for it or not. I also feel that it is important to reflect on your day that you had every night before you go to sleep so you can see how you can change it tomorrow to make your next day even better. Some days are easier than others and some days don't always turn out better the next day. But either way you look at it, you are waking up the next day and enjoying the sun shining from the sky.

One picture quote that I found and look at everyday is this one:

I am very thankful for everyone and everything that I have in my life which makes me happy with my life as a whole.  I spent time with my sister and nephew the other day, just hanging out going shopping, etc.  My sister is one of my best friends and my nephew is only 8 months old and he is my world. The thought of that little boy can put a smile on my face any day. We went to lunch and he was smiling at people sitting at the tables next to us. We heard a few older folks chatting about how cute he was and how good he was behaving. My sister heard this and she was one proud Mommy! She was so happy and thankful for her son that he was so well behaved. We continued our day as we went shopping to local stores and he was a great little boy all day. As we all know, shopping hours on end with a child can be very tough sometimes, but this little one was amazing. He never really napped so he was overtired and even though he was tired he refused to miss a beat of what was happening around him. At the end of the day when he finally was getting restless, I began to see the stress and tiredness take over. When most people would get frustrated at this point my sister smiled and loved that little boy more more and more each moment of the day as time went past. I thought about her smiling face and it occurred to me that I just witnessed this quote in my life happen before my eyes. The baby was happy all day making everyone else smile and even my sister was smiling form time to time looking at her son but has no idea what being thankful means. He acted happy and showed the world what happiness looks like. At the end of the day even when he was not so happy and pleasant anymore, my sister still was smiling and was still happy even though sh was tired too. She is so in love with her child and so thankful to have him in her life, that even when times get hard and stressful, she truly is happy to have the life she has. Everyday may not be sun and daises and we all learn to dance in the rain to get through to the next day, but at the end of the day when the sun goes down and the moon is out and all the stress of the day goes to sleep, think to yourself, would I have changed anything about today? If your answer is no and you are still smiling even if it wasn't a perfect day, you know you are very thankful for the life you live and that is what makes it perfect for you. #SOL14


Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Excited or Exhausted.... Which are you?

The topic for the Slice of Life challenge this week is Excited or Exhausted? This question was tough to answer on many levels. When thinking about the slice of life challenge I am excited. I am actually enjoying myself writing once a week about topics such as this one. I feel that it is a moment I can take to myself to write how I feel or think for a moment in time. It truly makes me sit down and relax for a minute to write about how I feel. When I think about other things in my life, Excited doesn't always come to mind. I am exhausted with the amount of work I have to do lately. I am loaded down with assignments and with my full-time job in general. I work two part-time jobs on the side as well, so time is very valuable. I'm tired of running from place to place and not taking time for myself to breath. I forget what it is like to relax and enjoy moments with friends. I do not get to listen to music and  let my hair down that often anymore. I am enjoying this assignment because for once I can take a minute to breath and relax. I am excited for other things in life as well! My boyfriend and I are in the process of buying a house and things are going well so far. We are going to be signing our contract this week so I am overwhelmed with excitement and fear all at the same time. I am excited for the 5 weddings I have to attend this year. I am excited that my nephew is almost 8 months old and is starting to crawl. I am excited and blessed that my support team that I have, has never left my side even when I feel like I am all alone in this crazy world. I know that I have a team of people behind me that keep pushing up that hill when I feel like I'm falling down. So when I am asking myself if I'm excited or exhausted, I rather look at it as experienced. If it wasn't for those exhausting times that pushed me harder or the exciting times that made me glad for the exhausted times, I would not be where I am today. So thank you for allowing me to be experienced in this trip called life.


Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Slice of Life Challenge

During my Masters course, we were challenged to write a post for the Slice of Life challenge. I have never heard of this challenge before nor was I sure this is being done correctly. However, like everything else I do , this is just another learning experience where I can grow from. Enjoy my slice.

Twisting turning can not sleep
Wishing I didn't hear a peep.
Stressed, nervous, want to do well
Why does it continue to feel like hell.
I try my best everyday, yet it never seems enough,
I want to shout out real loud and call somebody's bluff
I will survive, I always do, no matter how the rain falls
I will not let this thundercloud put me up against walls.
So as I get my rain boots on and open my umbrella high
I keep my head up and never back down, as I shoot for the star in the sky.

Thanks for reading and stay tuned for more to come.