Wednesday, April 30, 2014

The beginning of the rest of my life

As the semester comes to an end, things are overwhelming. Everybody is stressed out and things are busy. Between working full-time and part-time, also tutoring and babysitting, making time for family and friends becomes tough. I was fortunate enough this past weekend to be able to go away with my boyfriend to Florida for the weekend. He traveled for his job and they paid for me to go visit him for a few days, all expenses paid! I was overwhelmed and excited and was in desperate need of a break. I boarded the plane, I traveled the 1,200 mile flight and landed in Orlando, Florida shortly after. I spent time with family I haven't seen in a while and enjoyed catching up with everyone. I spent the day with my Aunt and enjoyed our talks, until she drove me to the hotel to meet up with my boyfriend. That felt like it was the longest ride ever! Don't get me wrong, I have not been by my boyfriend's side every moment of our relationship. He has traveled for the firehouse and I have house sat or stayed with friends from time to time, where we were not together. But the idea of not being able to see him for two weeks was tough. I was bothered by not waking up and seeing his face every morning. It became apparent to me that this relationship was much more than any other one in the past. Pulling up into the hotel, I felt my heart beat faster as I looked around for his car, quickly forgetting he had a rental which I had no idea what it looked like. The moment of uncertainty quickly changed, when I saw him walking towards me. The smile immediately rose on my face and I hugged him like it was forever since I have seen him. The feeling of love that I felt in his arms, made me fall in love with him all over again. We enjoyed the few days together, checking out the Kennedy Space Center, swimming in the pool and just enjoying our quality time together as a couple. The time together was beyond wonderful and I knew that this is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. He has been by my side through hard times and good. He was there for my nephews arrival everyday with my and my family in the hospital. He always goes above and beyond to help not only me but my family as well. He has totally made my life better and I could not be more thankful for everything he has done. That mini break from life gave me the moment to stop and appreciate all the little things in life. I enjoyed relaxing in his arms and just being young again and not stressing over everything life throws at you. When time gets hard, he is always there to make me better and I couldn't be more thankful. This may be the end of the semester but I truly feel that these last few months are the best months I have experienced and I have Fernando to thank for that.  He truly is a great guy and the man of my dreams. I can't wait to see the rest of the ride that there is in store for him and I as I believe this is just the beginning of a beautiful future.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Good things come to those who wait

This week has been a very eventful one so far. My boyfriend and I have been house hunting for about 5 months now and we did end up finding a house that we liked but it needed a lot of work. After finding a house that we both liked, we started the buying process on a short sale house. Unfortunately, there is nothing short during a short sale! After a month or so into the process, it became apparent that there were more issues than we had anticipated. due to the unexpected outcome we had to pull out of the deal. It was a hard day for both of us and I know that the boyfriend felt like it was a failing moment and we were hesitant to jump back into the search. After a few weeks, we decided to try again with the house hunting. To our surprise, we found a house that was on more property and was move in ready condition, and was NOT a SHORT SALE!! We were so excited that we immediately called our realtor and checked it out. After looking at it and discussing the difference in price, I am proud to say that we have placed an offer on the house and they accepted! We are now in the process of the home inspection being completed and if all goes well, we will be homeowners! It is so exciting and overwhelming all in the same moment.  A day after we found out about the house, my boyfriend received a call from his job asking him to travel for a few weeks. My happiness immediately turned into anxiety since he is a major part in the house situation. I felt my hands get sweaty and my heart drop  in anticipation of how long he would have to be away. To my surprise, his company will be sending him to Florida and will be doing a few days before he returns for the Easter holiday. Then he would be flying back out for 2 weeks. Sad to think I wouldn't see him for two weeks, I was still supportive and understood that his job needs him to go. I did my research on the house information and began to set up appointments and meetings with people for the house that need to be taken care of while he is gone to keep the process moving. After talking with his boss at his job, he came to me with some extra exciting news. Not only might we be home buyers in a few short months, but his company also felt bad for springing this travel on him in such short notice, that they are flying ME to Florida for a weekend to spend time with him!! I was so overwhelmed with excitement and joy that I could hardly speak!! I have been in need of a vacation from everything going on in my life and it seemed that there were was disappointing news one after the other for a while. To hear all these great and positive things happening and they are all happening with the love of my life, is more than overwhelming! It became apparent to me that hard work and perseverance definitely pays off and that good things do come to those who wait. I am looking forward to my weekend get away in beautiful Florida and then preparing for hopefully my last move for years to come into OUR BRAND NEW HOME!!

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

And then a hero comes along ♪ ♫♩

While subbing in a fourth grade class today, I was really having a hard time getting the students to cooperate with me at first. They were very chatty and had a hard time settling in. They ignored me when I was speaking to them and They were rude when speaking to me in general. It seemed to me that it was going to be one of those days where I was leaving with a headache and really doubting if this is truly what I am working so hard towards. I decided I wanted to take a different approach and really try to connect with the students. After I grasped their attention, I asked them to think about how they would have felt if I walked into the room and ignored everything they said. I explained that if they needed the bathroom or wanted a drink, no matter how many times they asked me I would just make a face and continue talking to my neighbor and ignore their  requests.  This caused many students to look at me in shock. They did not seem to understand why I was talking to them in this manner and why I seemed so upset with them all of a sudden. I explained that I have been speaking the same way and at the same tone since they all arrived in the room. Nothing I have done has changed except for the fact that I flipped the position of behaving like the teacher in the room to acting and behaving like a student in the classroom that day. I explained how their behavior and disrespect for me as a guest in the classroom made me upset and disappointed. I explained how I asked them to complete a task and the responses and behavior they displayed at the time was unpleasant and really hurt my feelings. I wasn't planning on coming into a class to feel like I was not even in the room and based on their behavior that was exactly how I felt. At this point, students were so quiet you could hear a pin drop. I explained that I want to get the work completed and I want to have a fun filled day, but if they choose not to treat me with respect, then our day will not be fun together. Feelings would be hurt and people should never have to feel uncomfortable at school or anywhere for that matter because of how other people around them behave or act. I explained to them that these kinds of behaviors could be confused with bully behaviors. Just because they were not calling me names and physical hurting me, did not mean that they weren't effecting the way I was feeling inside. I explained how our lesson today was a poem about class bully's. We continued on with the poem and we took turns reading and explaining what they poem was about. We discussed how the bully can be a boy or a girl, young or old. We talked about what you should do if you are being bullied or know of others who are being bullied. After about 30 minutes of conversations , the students who were very reluctant to listen to me in the beginning of the day, seemed to turn a new leaf. The class went smooth the rest of the day. The students all worked well with one another and they all seemed to get along. I had a student walk up to me at the end of the day and hand me a picture saying "Ms. L is my favorite sub ever. She is my hero". I asked the young lady what made her feel I was her hero, and she stated that if it wasn't for the way i spoke to the class earlier, she would have never been noticed by some of her classmates. She explained how she has asked to join their groups in the past and she was never expected because she wasn't cool like they were. After my conversation with them, she said she decided to ask if she could sit with them at lunch and they actually let her. The look on her face made my heart melt and I knew that at this point I have done my job not only as a teacher but as a mentor. I truly made a difference in at least one students life and that was the greatest feeling in the world. What i thought was going to be the worst day in my life turned out to be the best life experience I would ever encounter.  Here is hoping that all this hard work will land me a place to touch more souls and hopefully giving people a different view of how they treat others. 

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Round and round I go and when I stop nobody knows....

This is my Slice of Life poem for  April 1st. We were talking about poems since April is national poetry month. On that note, I wrote once again about how things are in my life. I enjoy writing poetry from time to time but lately I feel like I'm having a hard time thinking of things that are very happy and cheerful like I normally do.  It has been a very stressful semester for me personally and it seemed that the stress has totally taken me for a ride and I do not like that feeling. I am almost on autopilot and the thought of going off of a schedule is scary because I feel that everything else around me will fall apart. A vacation is definitely needed for me to get away and enjoy time without having to think for a change of due dates and assignments. This poem reflects how I have been feeling lately and I chose to write it in a circle because I feel that is how I have been traveling recently. I'm always on the go and always at a fast pace yet there is a feeling of no end to things lately. Once I think I have seen the end of the race, I begin to realize that the end was just another marker in my race of life saying that I have a few more miles to go to the finish line. I keep pushing ahead but definitely am getting tired from the hike up hill.